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about me.

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-» jenny benny luuuu - ster ! :]
-» january 14th -- 14 years kid
-» boston latin school -- class of 2O'13 -- in my freshhhman♥ yearrr ;] .
-» residing in murrderrr massssachusetttts -- bostonnniannn -- dorchesterrriannn.
-» i love love love bubble tea and orange&vanilla ice cream[: loveee it♥ -- & for some reason the smell of coconut is ridiculously amazing to me.
-» half chinese [cantonese] half vietnamese [don't speak it] but i love love love koreans [wanting to learn it]!
-» girls are bitches (: except mine. [michelle nguyen - my mother & wifey] & [edalina wang - my wifey also]
-» bigbangin' babyyy -- snsd -- wonder girls -- epik high -- clazziquai -- the pillows -- gorillaz -- loveholic -- OLIVIA ONG -- my many faves.
-» i am now singleeeee to mingle :].
-» i use aim, rarely ; jayluuuuxo :] talk to me. though i mostly text and go on facebook.

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thee lovelyyys.

[ michelle & edalina <3 my lovely wifeys :) freshmanyear ]

describe me in one word if possible --x

Michelle Nguyen; LOVE ♥

Wallace; Pulchritudinous funny pretty cute creepy sneaky beautiful cool awesome unique original creative adorable longhair blackhair lovely pretty attractive charming delightful heavenly lovable admirable elegant gorgeous graceful lovely stunning wonderful likeable sweet nice rare precious fascinating entertaining hilarious fantastic and a lot more
Quynh; Crazy
Lyn; Ninja
Jenniberr; Weird <33
Eddielinarrs; STUNNIN' [:
Natalie; Adorable
Lena; Adorable <333
Adri; FRIKKENAWESOMEE<33
Courtney; Weird inthe best way evr tho
Ayemee; AWESOMEE :]
Phillip; Spontaneous
Win; Awesome
Gio; Small
Juliee; Hyper xD
Loc; Loves to give hugs, fun to talk to, unique

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Tuesday, December 29, 2009

12/29/2009 01:04:00 AM

ohmygod... i'm really horrible.

:] okay so michelle already knows that steven lai is starting to annoy me. first off he keeps calling me cute although a lot of people do >_> like wanli and yanlee lol. but then he expresses it with other words like gorgeous and beautiful. though when he talks its MAAD GHETTO like, seriously ghetto. well at least thats how i see it. and i dont like that lol. he uses pick up lines like 'girl no matter what i think you're maad beautiful' and such like its nice to know but repeating it too many times. then he keeps talking to me and trying to get with me. and you know how its a bit of insane to tell someone you like them even though you dont know them and had only known them for like a few days. well thats what he did. he told me he liked me after only 2 days. i thought it was insane. how could you be like that and tell them. i mean being interested in is alright but when you tell them its a absolutely different thing.

and after that i only thought of it as aweee, but really i have no intentions to be with him. dude chill, we're just friends. and THEN what really pissed me off is that he started talking to me and about MY family. since his parents fight i told him oh mine does too its normal. he starts saying that i should deal with them and get my other family members to stop them from fighting. its not physical fighting its an agressive arguement. they dont actually like kill each other. and seriously now. you cant even deal with your own parents and you're trying to help me. get real. you don't even know me so stop acting like you do. i hate that.

and when he told me he liked me it was only 2 days of talking. he BARELY KNOWS ANYTHING ABOUT ME. so you can't really say you like some one after only knowing them for 2 days. that made him seem really desperate. its like where the guy keeps saying oh i love you to every single girl he think he likes but really he doesn't like them he just likes the feeling of liking someone and knowing he has a girl and not the actual person themselves. thats what it makes me think of. like really now... after that you really think you could possible have any chance with me especially when i still ponder over the thoughts of another person.

and those poems. omfg. okay so he says hes a great poet. well i DO NOT THINK SO AT ALL. they basically sound really childish and they're just mainly the changed lyrics of a song. they don't have great grammar and its madd ghetto. all of them are rhymes that anyoneeeee could do. and after i kinda just about STOPPED talking to him after he talked about my family. he wrote poems like
"each tear represents how much i love you, as i wait for you, my heart starts to fade away n my body starts to give out,i cant believe you left me here heartbroken, this pain is killing me inside, its burning me,im in need, I began to bleed, I begin to search for answers for this curse, but as much as hard as i try, I still end up missing you."
dude you're basically saying youre desperate and you dont know me like that .
"My main mission is to show you that my love for you is not intermission,i know you're in a bad condition because he's hurting you,don't feel depress,hes not making any progress,please stop crying because your pain is my pain,i can be the one that changes your life,just give me a chance and ima show you romance,im not gonna be like him,always leaving you and making you sad,im always gonna be here for you and care so stop being despair,girl let me love you"
aha. no. SERIOUSLY hes gotta stop that. yea i told him i get depressed now and then but its no big deal. and so he goes ahead and he makes it a big deal wtf.. no, you cant change my mind that easily. and you really just about in my point of view obviously can't compare to him.
"My life starts another day without you,im sitting here crying my eyes out,lately i been feeling downhearted,as day and night fades away,im still wondering how our love went to astray,i miss the conversations we used to had like our dreams,our fears and how much we love each other"
i don't recall saying that i liked you nor did i say i love you. and i don't throw that love word around easily when i'm serious. i only say that to michelle and edalina and my family, basically when i'm playing around or saying i love you to my friends. but i never EVER said that once EVER to you. so whyd you use that word?
yea so that was like basically it . and he annoys me still. he keeps texting me although i give him like one worded answers or short answers that should hint 'i dont wanna talk to you' . and he still talks to me thinking thats hes funny he haha's or lol's at him self... GEEZ STOP TALKING TO ME, THERE WAS A REASON WHY I STOPPED REPLYING.

okay so other than him theres another guy. >_< i'm trying not to get caught up >_> but i don't think it's working. maybe boys are just too cute to resist??? :l it's really hard to not be interested... but i'll try crazily not to though if anything happens then i can't help it because. well. i just can't. ;]. sam has been texting me continuously since thursday or friday maybe. but it's all good i'm not expecting anything from anyone anymore.

so thats basically it; steven is annoying me out of my mind but i feel bad for him, bill just assassinated me and made me feel insane heartaches after i got home though i have no idea why, and sam's just really adorable but in the end i'm not expecting anything more than just that. i really don't want a relationship but i know it wont be helped. i'm fine the way i am now; trying only to hurt myself without hurting others.

ahh, i'm really sorry that i ever liked you. i'm just an insanely inhumane horrible being. & i hate myself :l .